too young, too proud

PARTY animal

2010-09-23T11:56:00.003+08:00

Loving Zouk's Ad for this week;

par•ty a•ni•mal n: a species of bipedal primates in the family Hominidae, known for being nocturnal and having good taste in music, with a huge appetite for great fun

cinta dalam hati translation

2010-09-16T10:16:00.003+08:00

What a sad song. Read the lyrics (my own english translation below for those who don't understand)

(Indonesian)
mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
mengagumi tanpa dicintai
tak mengapa bagiku
asal kau pun bahagia
dalam hidupmu, dalam hidupmu

telah lama ku pendam perasaan itu
menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
tak mengapa bagiku
cintaimu pun adalah
bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku

ku ingin kau tahu
diriku di sini menanti dirimu
meski ku tunggu hingga ke hujung waktuku
dah berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
dan izinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali in saja
tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja

(English)
maybe this is my fate
to admire without being loved
it's fine for me
as long as you're happy/contented
in/with your life

i have buried this feeling for very long
waiting for your heart to welcome me
it's fine for me
loving you is also
happiness/contented for me

i want you to know
i am here waiting for you
even if i have to wait till i die
and hoping this feeling will last forever
and please allow me to hold you just this once
to forever say goodbye
and allow my feelings to be elated for just a short while

suara (ku berharap)

2010-09-13T15:57:00.003+08:00

for that one and only who always leave me waiting & wondering...

Suara dengarkanlah aku

Apa khabarnya, pujaan hatiku

Aku di sini menunggunya,

masih berharap, di dalam hatinya

Suara, dengarkanlah aku

Apakah aku, slalu di hatinya

Aku di sini menunggunya,

masih berharap, di dalam hatinya

SteamBoating

2010-09-04T22:02:00.002+08:00

Had a great time yesterday Steam Boating with BFF and others. Everyone was so bloated by the end of the night. Kinda like a belated birthday celebration for Shena. Got her a Coach Wristlet and a Pink Daisy. Hope she likes it as much as I do. And, she created a new iPhone app called iStinks. Hahaha. We're planning to go for a short trip to Batam in November. I can't wait for the short getaway. And for my birthday next year, they're planning on taking me for a trip somewhere. Weeee.. I love my BFF. (issit suppose to be BFFS now?)

What suprise me the most was my boss. I end work at 6pm everyday. Yesterday, around 5.15pm, I was kinda bored as I had finished my all my work. So I thought of taking a chance of asking to leave early.

Me: Boss, can I ask you something?

Boss: yea.

Me: Issit possible for me to go off early today?

(I was expecting him to ask why or what time)

Boss: ok. bye!

Me: uh? serious? now...?

Boss: ya. see you next week. bye!

girls night out with my mamasitas

2010-08-30T10:40:00.002+08:00

Venue: Flyer and Popeyes'

Date: 27 August 2010

With: Shena & Zee (+1 husband)

And over the weekends, I've successfully made Creme Brulee! My favourite desert! It just couldn't taste any better. Everyone's lovin' it!

total random shitness!

2010-08-26T10:14:00.004+08:00

Aite. Haven't been updating in a long long time. All thanks to Facebook and status updates :)

Not much had happened lately. Working all day and sleeping all night. Fasting month's here, so I've been trying my best not to put edible items in my mouth while working. *I can do this!*

Been meeting up with horny vonnie lately. Taking on 7 years. A friend in need is a friend indeed!

ok total random shitness post shall end with some pics.

kimizan

2010-07-20T12:12:00.002+08:00

it's officially over.

Thank you for all the fond memories and exposing me to many thing I didn't know. I wish you will succeed in your career and will definately find someone better out there. Thank you for always trying to understand me either through religious terms, my expressions, my body language and also verbal language. I will always appreciate all that you have done.

I'll continue living my life as I normally did, just as I had before we met. Can't say that I can't survive and will die without you coz then I would have died a long time ago. But one thing I know for sure is that I'll miss you.... terribly

Thank you.

Miranda Cosgrove - Kissin' U (Official Music Video - HQ)

2010-07-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

confused

2010-07-15T21:04:00.001+08:00

I think it's best I let it go now then drag it any further.
I'll miss you

...but it's something I have to do

x10 mini & st550

2010-06-09T15:41:00.006+08:00

AHHHH!!! Sayang bought me the X10 mini!! and it's super cute la! and and and, it's red!!
He knows I have been eyeing on it for quite some time and having some problems with my previous phone. Anyways, I told him I'll pay him back in full (or at least half )by next month cause I feel that it is too expensive for a gift. Unless he is a millionaire then I wouldn't mind being pampered to the fullest.

Can't wait to get my ST550. Already paid the downpayment but have yet to collect it as I requested for the purple design and it's currently out of stock. hopefully will get it by this week.
Was meant as gift for Sayang (that's why I chose purple instead of red) but I fell in love with it and have decided to keep it for my own. Anyway girls cam-whore more than guys rite? :) Bought him a Sony MP4 instead since he needs to travel quite a distance now to and from work. So an MP4 will do him justice. At least he can still listen to music even though he forgot to charge his phone. hehehe.

idiots!

2010-06-01T12:47:00.003+08:00

received 2 peculiar calls at work today.

call 1
idiot: I have a reservation under Mr ..... for tmr. I would like to check if it is already cancelled.
me: pardon, under Mr David is it?
idiot: no. Mr Ramesh
me: Mr Ramesh... yup, it's already cancelled
idiot: and the one under Mr David?
me: Sorry. your reservation is under Mr Ramesh right?
idiot: yes
me: yes it has already been cancelled
idiot: ya. and the one under Mr David?
me: sorry mdm but Mr David's reservation is entirely different from Mr Ramesh and my guests do deserve their privacy about their reservations
idiot: oh... bye

call 2:
I reach work around 8.45am today and there wasn't any calls till this lady (around 9.45am)

idiot2: I've been calling since 9am and there was no answer! I left voice messages and no one return it!
me: my apologies mdm, may I know what is it regarding?
idiot2: I have an appointment at 10.30am today
me: (wtf? all my colleagues start at 11am) may I know with whom your appointment is?
idiot2: I don't know! don't you all keep records of all your appointments?!
me: my apologies once again, may I know what is your appointment regarding?
idiot2: my meni and pedi session!!
me: eeerrmmm mdm.... this is a restaurant you're calling.
idiot2: ouh really? must have gotten the wrong number then.*hang up*
me: wtf?! all that scolding for nothing?!

...and I checked the voicemail, there was no new messages... what a day to start with

New Job

2010-03-21T16:12:00.002+08:00

Yay! Hip Hip Hurray for me! I got a job. The pay is high, no more split shifts and I get weekends off! How good is that? Will be starting work on Wednesday. Hopefully everything goes smoothly.

Anyway, I'm starting to look for a place to rent. Most prolly with my cousin but not too sure bout that. I'm trying to save money as the down payment is not that cheap. Hopefully my new job would be able to give me then financial support that I need.

Ok. Off to make full use of my last few holidays befores I start work again! Ciao!!

....

2010-03-11T15:15:00.002+08:00

Gosh. It's been so long since I last updated my blog. It's so dead. and I bet no one reads this shit. It's ok. It's just for me to write whatever I want to.

Have finally resigned from my work. Couldn't take the shit anymore. I don't see the whole point of me tiring myself out and doing other's shit when there's no sense of gratitude from anyone at all. And it's not fair that everyone else gets to sleep during split shift hours while I have to answer phone calls. They get paid more, so why am I the one working extra?

From time to time, when they need an extra hand, I help out as part-timer but now they screw up my pay too? Other part-timers have already received their pay but me. The company's totally ridiculous.

Since I no longer work there, I seldom meet up with Sayang as he work long hours and after work he'll be super tired. I understand him therefore we only meet up during his off-days or whenever I surprise him with a sleepover. But I was so pissed off with him on Monday.

We're suppose to meet up at 11am near his place. The day before, he told me his pre-paid was used up and that the following morning, he'll set alarm to wake up and top up his card.

I woke up at 9am and waited till 11 and there was no call from him. So I decided to just leave my house and make my way there and he might call me later. When I reached the meeting point, he wasn't there and I still couldn't reach him as he have not top-up his card. I waited till 1pm and decided to just drop by his house. From a distant, I saw that there were ambulance and firemen at his void deck and was praying not for the worst. Thankfully it was another unit's call, not his. I knocked on the door and his room window several times and no one answered. I decided to call one of his house mate to check if there's anyone at their place who can open the door for me and his house mate's gf was there thankfully and opened the door. I made my way to sayang's room and to my surprise, he was still SLEEPING soundly and comfortably with the air con at full blast at 1pm!

I switched on the lights and he slowly started to wake up. Still had the cheek to smile and greet me 'Good Morning'. Thankfully, god knocked some sense to his head and he finally realised his mistake. I didn't utter a word after, though he kept apologizing.

After a while, I forgave him as I know he's tired from work the day before and probably didn't mean to overslept and also, I don't want to waste his off day just like that. He promised to take me to Party World to cheer me up.

On the way there, he's friend called him up and when he hung up, he told him his friend was joining us for Karaoke. WTF? He didn't even ask if I was ok with his friend joining and he knew I was upset just now so shouldn't he should try to cheer me up by spending more time with me rather than bringing a lamp post with us? I got upset again and I told him I wasn't fine with his friend tagging along. I was looking forward to spending alone time with him but somehow his brain just can't trigger must functions. He didn't even proposed to called up his friend to cancel it instead he just say to me, "he finish work early today. let him join us la. he at home also nothing to do." SO?! issit my problem your friend doesn't have someone to spend time with?!?

I sang a few songs during that and pretended to be ok as I didn't want his friend to know that there was a problem between me and sayang at that moment. After everything ended, I insisted that sayang didn't send me home and I can find my way back on my own. He could send his friend back home since he care so much bout him.

Haven't met sayang till today. Might be meeting him tomorrow. Hope things wouldn't be the same as Monday.

ridiculars guest requests/comments

2010-01-26T13:36:00.003+08:00

Ok well. My blog's been dead for a while.
Since my days at my current workplace is numbered, I guess I shall reflect on my time here with the most ridiculars guest requests/comments I've heard. I'll save the best for last.

Me: I'm sorry Sir but currently all the tables are being occupied at the moment.
Guest: come on! it's just a table for 2. can't you just get us a table?!

Are you open? (after entering the restaurant and saw other guest eating)

Can i get 3 menus? (3 menus is already on the table if only you'd use your eyes to see)

(Ater asking regarding Brunch Menu which is a 5-course meal inclusive of free flow drinks) you think it'll be enough? not side dishes or anything?

(After looking at the restroom sign)
Is the restroom there?

(During a phone call)
Me: Hello *Insert company name* Izan speaking.
Guest: Hi. Is this *the same company name I just mentioned* ?

Guest: (no reservations) Can I get a table outdoors?
Me: Sorry but all outdoor tables are occupied at the moment.
Guest: but i can see so many empty tables!
Me: My apologies for saying this but are you seeing things mdm?

Guest: We would like to sit further out near the garden.
Me: I would love to have you to sit there but the weather doesn't look too good and indoors seats are filling up fast. If it rains I may not be able to get you a table under the shelter.
Guest: Don't be ridiculars! the weather looks just fine!
(15minutes later it started raining heavily and they had to eat at the bar)

(During a terrible blackout)
Me: Sorry Sir but we’re having a blackout and we’re still trying to rectify the problem. It’s might take us quite some time
Guest: (driving a Ferrari) So if I still go in and dine, will I get a discount?

(On a phone call during a Lamborghini event)
Your customers's cars are very noisy. Can you tell them to lower the noise a bit?

xmas!

2009-12-23T13:54:00.002+08:00

Baby got me a DKNY bag for Xmas!!

It cause a huge hole in his wallet but it's ok. I'll get him a new wallet. Haha

Looks exactly like this but in dark purple and the handle in Black. I Love IT!!!

rich fuckers

2009-11-11T18:00:00.002+08:00

When I came back from my holiday, I bought socks for my manager as I always notice that he has 'windows' in almost all of his socks. When asked why he doesn't want to get new socks, his answer will always be 'its for proper feet ventilation' or 'I'll get my wife to sew it back one day'. So when he saw his new socks, he was so over the moon. He left it in one of the drawers at the restaurant for safe keeping.

Just now, he was frantically looking for me and asking how many pairs of socks I got for him. He found out that one pair was missing and couldn't believe how anyone would even want to steal socks. He went round to all the staff including the kitchen asking them to lift up their pants to check what socks they were wearing. Super hysterical, I must say. Everyone was laughing at him while he was still keen on finding the socks. It's the first time I saw someone behaving that way over just one pair of socks.

I just realise that as peoples' wallet grow thicker and the more plastic cards they have, the more arrogant, inconsiderate, impatient and stingy they become. Well besides those one in million you find that still behave like an average human, all the people in this categories treats all front line people (receptionist, waiter/waitress, customer service) like as though we're slaves to them. How they talk to us, behave towards us, look at us as though we are not entitled to any feelings.

For instance, in a group of more than 10, some guests foods are brought to the table first, those without food will frantically wave to the waiter insisting they have to eat now. Come on, the waiter only have 2 hands for goodness sake. How would you expect him to carry all plates at one go? Or lets say when they want to celebrate a surprise birthday, definitely the cake will have to served first not the sharing plates and cutlery's or else it won't be a surprise anymore but these people just couldn't seem to wait.

Or when the guest enter the restaurant and you greet them, they couldn't even be bothered to greet you back or smile or at LEAST LOOK AT THE PERSON GREETING THEM! They just walk straight into the restaurant as thought it was their father's place. As if we're invisible. How would you feel?

At my work place, we work split shift, (11-3pm,5-11pm) but these people don't know how tiring it is to work split shifts (with their current background and thick wallet, why do they need a split shift work) so during our split shift, when we do not get paid, but the guest still insist on not leaving the restaurant and still stay and chat like there's no tomorrow, we still have to serve them. If they just chat among themselves and let us rest it's okay, but to still ask for us to serve them is a bit to much. And when we politely inform that we're already closed, they still refuse to leaving and we're unhappy, tell me issit our fault? They have all the time in the world to waste but we don't. Or how about when all the tables are occupied and these people walk in with no reservations and when informed it's full, they're unhappy and wants to meet the management and start complaining the restaurant does not have enough tables or the space is not use to it's maximum capacity. WTF?! There's plenty of places to eat out there THAT HAVE PLENTY OF TABLES unoccupied and they can even sleep on it. Let's say, maybe... Kopitiam? How unreasonable can these people get?

They also drive to the place with very posh cars. So tell me, aren't they a bit embarrassed when they drive in with an Audi R8 but still ask for discounts? Is that a rented car? or their daddy's?

Fuck it. I can't continue this anymore. I shall stop it here cause no matter how much I rant on, they will never change.
Ok
Ciao

it's not in our blood

2009-11-08T11:43:00.002+08:00

No wonder my colleagues couldn't work with you. For so many people to be unable to work side by side with you in such a short period of time, must have took lots of patience from them and attitude problems from you. Let's put it simply, you just can't co-operate with other and always insist on having your own ways.

Like yesterday for example, I told you I was coming home late with Kim. You said someone else was sleeping at your usual place and you wondered how we could accommodate 4 people's sleeping place. I gave you a solution but no, you insisted on having your own way by sleeping in the room. So when I came back, where was Kim suppose to sleep? In the living room in between the other guy and your boyfriend? In Kin's room? In the toilet or storeroom? or just let him sleep in the same room as you? What would Mom and Dad think if they see you sleeping the same room with my boyfriend? So what if you couldn't care less bout what others think of you but the whole world doesn't' revolve just around you only.

I just couldn't understand how you could simply ignore other's feeling and always put yourself first. 1 time you ask for help, 5 hands with volunteer to help but you took their help and only to forget soon after the storm is over. People say though we're related, but we're totally different. I guess I finally understood that.

Back from Holiday

2009-11-04T23:45:00.005+08:00

Aite people,
I'm back from my holiday. With a blink of an eye, a week has passed just like that. I'll be back to my same old routine starting Friday. God knows how much I'm looking forward to it.

The rest of the pictures can be found under 'about me/pictures'

Got a new job offer but I don't know if I wanna go for it. Though I'm really sick and tired of my current job, it'll be a waste to resign now as bonus is just around the corner. and also, the job offer has nothing to do with the my Diploma. Should I throw my $6000 just like that? If they really want to hire me, the will wait right? Haiz.

Time to sleep now. Ciao!

Raya

2009-09-24T19:35:00.001+08:00

I love my almost-everything-red room

Raya wishes from Memek-Fats to all Muslims!

Clothed...

...and unclothed

hehe

changes

2009-09-18T13:42:00.002+08:00

Haven't updated in a while. Been busy telling myself everything's gonna be fine one day and I'm surprised that I'm still working at this shit hole. Just one month Izan, everything will be fine just then.

I've also came to realise that my relationship with my parents had strain especially my mom, don't mind my dad as I seldom talk to him(not that we're unable to have a decent chat but that's just how our relationship is. Less talk). Mom has changed recently, nothing I do seem to please her and me coming home from work late (over time) every Fridays and Saturdays had seem to pissed her off so much. And when there's just those times when you need a mother's love and advice, she's no longer there for me. I remembered the other time I was so depressed and stress from work and I wanted to talk to someone. The first person that came to my mind was definitely my mom, but although she hear me crying and needing some sympathy, all she said to me was, "I'm having my break and resting right now. I talk to you later." And she never did.

I shall not rant on bout my mom as no matter what she does to me, she has always and will always be my mom and I love her so much. Trying my best to make her happy coz I guess she herself is having a difficult time coping with menopause. Hopefully, when I resign and get a new job, everything will be back to what it was.

SIMS3!

2009-09-04T12:29:00.002+08:00

ok I just have to blog this.

I FINALLY GOT MY SIMS3!!!

pics

2009-08-19T13:46:00.004+08:00

Shena (BFF)'s Engagement

The Stupid Things We do

pissed off

2009-08-16T11:13:00.004+08:00

Can't stand this shit hole anymore. Why issit all the resumes I've send have not been replied? I really need a new job badly. I can't work in an environment where people don't trust each other, saying awfully mean stuffs then try to cover it as a joke. It's no longer funny. This is literally a shit hole.

If they have a problem with me and Kim in a relationship and working in the same place then they should have voiced it out before we got together and not be the one who "opened the door" for us. After a hard day of work which is usually around 9.30pm or 10pm, I would request for a smoke break(first time since dinner shift started) he's reply would be, "You think I don't know issit? U just want to go behind to be with Kim" or "How many times you want to smoke?!"
My reply "I haven't smoked yet! this is the first time I'm asking!"

I've worked here for so long and finally on Thursday, I fell sick and took MC. It surprises me too that only now that I fall sick after so long. Instead of showing compassion, they even have the cheek to ask me to come back to work. Wth. When I showed up for work on Saturday, instead of asking how I was doing, the first question slapped to my face was, "Why u never reply my msg? Sakit sangat ke sampai takleh reply boleh kejer ke tak?" (too sick to reply my msg if u can work or not?). Wtf. Seriously if it's not for my family financial needs, I won't even bother to stay here till now. My reception table was in a complete mess, stationery's all over the table and OC forms all left undone. HE always tell me to do the OC form after the date of operation so we could remember which guest we gave discounts to, but past 3-4day's were not done and when I ask who the guest was, people answered in a can't-bothered-coz-it's-suppose-to-be-your-job tone. Well, it's NOT my job. OC's are to be done by the managers!
AHHH. so pissed right now.ciao!

work work work

2009-08-03T13:39:00.002+08:00

Work so sucks right now. Everyday without fail I'm getting F@#! for something that's not my fault. If I'm the manager or the supervisor, I don't mind, coz it shows I'm not handling the staff well, but now, I'm just the F!@$%!#%^ receptionist. 5 tables and 3 service staff can't handle? They still need me on floor service? Wtf. When I need help with my paper work, no one cares, but when they need help with service they will call me. Help me understand why I should tire myself to help others when others won't help me.

Yesterday night, after talking on the phone with Kimmy-san, I suddenly crave for Siew Mai and wanted to ask him to buy for me but I didn't call him back thinking the next morning I can tell him as he always calls me before he leaves for work. Today he called me but I woke up late so I was rushing to get ready and totally forgot to tell him to buy Siew Mai for me. When I reach work, I said good morning to him and he gave me a plastic with Siew Mai in it. I was super suprise. Haha. Great minds think alike. That's why I love my Kimmy-san so much. HAHA.

Ok. I wanna ciao now. Back to work for me. It feels good to be able to take my mind of work even for a minute or 2 just to blog. Okies. Ciao Ciao

Hate this shit over and over again!

2009-07-29T12:23:00.002+08:00

I hate my job! I hate my job so much that I'm confessing it online.
Ever since my manager went on leave, I hate my job even more!
Long hours, can't claim over time, my off day is fixed and I can't ask for a change of day, even during split shift I have to answer phone calls!
and I can't understand why they appoint someone else to takeover my manager's duties but it's me who have to do all his paper works and other task. Slight mistakes such as spelling error will cause everyone to make a big hooohaa bout it and EVERYONE will remind me bout it over and over again. I'm so fucking sick of this! When I come back from my off day, the first thing that will happen even before I eat my breakfast is people throwing paper works at me. WTF.
Shit Piehole.
Anyone steps on my last nerve and I'll throw my fucking letter. I don't care even if it's before I get a new job!

Zzzzz

2009-07-23T12:13:00.001+08:00

Haiz. I'm dragging myself to work everyday.
Why? Cause ALL La Villa's staff is 'dying' by the day.
One is on 2mths leave.
Another just cut his finger yesterday. Poor chap, now he's on 4 days MC.
Someone has just submitted his resignation letter.
My manager's going on 3 weeks leave (not sure if he's coming back).
And the barman might be resigning soon.

Everyone's leaving one by one. Man-power is really low right now. And instead of hiring more, the big boss wanna cut on number of staff. Make us run like dogs the whole day. Now he's even planning to have us serve high tea. He has got to be kidding me. High Tea = no split shift = working 11am to 11pm for 6 days a week. Crazy. Everyone will literally die here. Even if we do, does he care?

2009-07-17T11:57:00.003+08:00

My deepest condolences to my dear friend and a great chef, Amin. You'll be missed dearly.

I'll miss his cooking, when he disturbs me at the reception while waiting for his fax to be sent, when he keeps calling Kim everytime we're out together and will especially miss the chocolate cake he made for my birthday. I'll practically miss everything bout him.

the sepet one

2009-07-15T19:12:00.002+08:00

Monthly Cravings

2009-07-09T20:17:00.004+08:00

F**k! I hate it when I start having cravings.
And this month, it's alot.

bone steak
chilli crab(again)
mcspicy
lala/clams/mussles/cockles
pepperoni pizza
lasagne
baked beefballs
waffle ice cream

I'm going broke just to satisfy my cravings. :(

why is approval so impt?

2009-07-08T14:03:00.003+08:00

Yay! My craving for chili crab has been satisfied. All thanks to Foong and my sayang.

Me: Why you both perspiring so much?
Foong: Coz ur Bf and his friend don't eat spicy food. becoz of you he come. See how much he sayang you. Haha
Me: Woah. SO touched uh.. hahaha

I dunno why I always crave for food. The other day I was craving for KFC, Fish&Co, Popeye's and Sayang followed me all the way to the 3 locations to eat it. He's so sweet.
Hopefully everything will go smoothly for us though others have yet to accept it.

AM NOW WAITING TO SATISFY MY CRAVINGS FOR BONE STEAK!

2009-06-29T11:58:00.002+08:00

thanks for all those that cared.
But I guess it was all a misunderstanding on my part.

Hopefully it is...

bored at work

2009-06-15T13:12:00.002+08:00

Ok. I've just realised I've not updated my blog for this month yet. Been so busy at work and trying to catch up with my close ones during my off days. So I practically have no time for myself. It's been a while since I even lay down on my bed and pamper myself with a facial mask while watching Korean/Japanese DVDS.

Ok. News updates bout myself. I finally got myself a red Vaio that I'm soooooo gonna brag about. Coz I love it so much. Another addition to my Red collection. Now I'm equipped with a Red room, Red bedsheets, Red lappy, Red PSP, Red phone, Red wallet, Red Bag, and practically everything red.

Haiz. Yesterday was super busy and long day for everyone so I guess tiredness got the best of us which caused me and Jimmy to quarrel. And the main fault of the problem is: BIRTHDAY CAKE. I thought he was just kidding but when he started raising his voice at me, I felt he was being so rude so I quarrelled back. Then the manager had to step in and he himself got into a heated argument with Jimmy. Gosh. I feel so guilty now. Every time I step in the kitchen, it feels like there's a storm in it. I can't even disturb my sayang now. Haiz. Foong told me to let Jimmy cool down first before talking to him again. But, it wasn't my fault that something happened earlier yesterday and he vented his anger on me. I just need to find a new job now. If not at least a transfer. Been quarrelling too much. Maybe it's not other people's fault but mine.

Syiqa, Fir and Irfan, you guys planned to webcam together but 2 days I waited online and no one's here. soooo sad.

bored @ work

2009-05-21T20:33:00.002+08:00

Woah! First time someone proposed at my work place. So sweet.

For the past 4 days, I've been helping out a guest to arrange for his proposal to his girlfriend. So yesterday was the 'big day'. So sweet, he serenade a song for her, got a big pink bouquet of roses and simple but expensive bling bling. Of coz the girl said yes! And also, he gave a PERSONAL tip and another $50 for the rest to share. WEEE!!!

BUT, tmr I have to buy breakfast for everyone. Coz they make me feel guilty not sharing the tips...

me: wei! i received personal tip from table 8!
jimmy: how can?! don't u know the company rules?
me: i know! he gave u all tips oso! anyway i ask the manager already and he say ok.
jimmy: no! not fair! I call police!
me: and arrest me under wad chargers?
jimmy: dunno. i just wanna call
me: ooooooooooooooooooooooooookkk...

Super duper bored at work today. Coz *he* is off. haiz. So bored to death.

Kim: wei. wad u doing?
me: errmmm putting cake inside the chiller...? move lar. dun block my way.
(he continues to block my way and I was pushing him and it looks like i was hugging him and Roberto saw it)
Roberto: wei valentina. tmr I tell *him* you and kim hug hug eh?
me: i never do anything
Roberto: i see you and him hug hug. tmr i tell *him*
me: no please.....

I want my off day!

2009-05-18T23:54:00.003+08:00

AHHHH... 6 days more till my off day and I'm already going crazy!! [in case you're wondering, my last off day was last tuesday 12/5). Gosh I need a break from work. You know when start dragging your feet to work, not arriving on time, eats all the food in sight, can't wake up after split shift's over, being locked in the chiller is not fun anymore, starts babbling nonsense that your colleagues think you're sexually deprived, laugh at your own jokes when everyone else is wondering what it means, everyone's walking half naked in front of you, on weekends you see group of friends going out together but you have to go to work and etc etc. haiz....

vincent: you need sex Izan.
me: wad? why?
vincent: u so whinny and crazy today
me: oooooooooooook
vincent: who u wan? me; not your type. roberto; too old. ameng; too big. kim; too young for you. jimmy; too small like leech. hahahahahahha
me: omg. you so mean!
vincent: well, all bartenders are bastards! I am one!

[locked in the chiller]
me: in case you don't realise, we're in the chiller and I'm already cold enough. stop fanning me with the styrofoam board.
*him*: ok lar. why don't you off the torchlight so we can do something to you. so you won't be disappointed to whoever that did it.
me: disappointed? why? under-performing issit?
*him*: kurang ajar sal. Kim! we whack her here, nobody will see.
me: just try opening the door now will you....?

[after showering]
me: put on some pants will you ? [he was wearing shorts]
*him*: I do have shorts on!
me: well, put on something longer than your shirt! [turns to Kim] Sayang you want milo?
kim: I want I want.
Meng: I also want.
*him*: wei! then me nv ask? I also want
me: shutup and put on some pants!
*him*: I AM WEARING PANTS!
me: `rolls eyes...`

[during short briefing]
vincent: ok. any last words?
me: fendi having sale!
everyone: uh?!
me: hehe. no la. it mean if anyone needs help, please hesistate to look for me.
vincent: eh you ok or not?
me: not till i get my Jimmy Choo. I mean, there's at least 10 staff here, everyone can contribute like about $30-50 and get me a pair.
*everyone starts walking away*
me: what did I do?

Ilyas told me go for a checkup asap coz he suspects that I have peanut for a brain. How mean is tad. I love working there with all these people entertaining my nonsense [coz i'm the only girl] but too bad most will be leaving soon. Such strong team with good bonds with each other but none can take LG's nonsense. Haiz. If only LG can be fired.

lame shit day

2009-05-18T00:25:00.002+08:00

quote of the day, "Jimmy Chua, please buy me a Jimmy Choo".
his reply, "Why should I buy you another me?"
"wth.. I can't wear you. and you definately worth less than $300"
"kurang ajar sal. hahaha"

Today was a super duper slow day at work. Lunch was slow, dinner was slow, bus ride home was slow. And today, everyone's brain is not functioning properly. We woke up on the wrong side of the bed, or maybe, underneath the bed for this case.

*****

manager: Sayang, u know wad? I think I forgot to wear my briefs today.
me: ooooooook... I sooooooooooooooooooo didn't need to know that.

*****

me: [kitchen stuff borrowed my shampoo and body soap] the purple one is the shampoo. the red one is the soap
kim: woah. strawberry soap arh!
*him*: woah. you like strawberry flavour uh? ok next time I buy [winks cheekily]

*****

me: wow. now you all smell like me.
*him*: yup. like strawberry.

*****

kim: wad you want?
me: ice cream lar
kim: wad ice cream lar?
me: doesn't matter. as long as it's on you. LOL
*him*: OI! WHAT DID YOU SAY?!
me: chocolate ice cream!

*****

me: bye boss!

LG: bye. don't be naughty ok? Sleep well

me: ?!

*****

roberto: Valentina, go Italy now? with me.

me: really? Italy, handsome boys, many many?

roberto: yes yes

me: ok I go with you now.

roberto: now eh? no no. august.

me: uh......? didn't you just say 'now'?

shitty day

2009-05-11T00:17:00.004+08:00

Today is definitely my worst day ever! I feel so shitty that even a cold shower didn't help me to feel any better. I just have to blog bout today to get it off my chest.

First of all, L.G f**ked me for the first time and not once but twice! Since when it's my fault that the restaurant is full and there's no room for anymore reservations?! He called me and F-ed me over the phone then came over and F-ed me again, together with my manager, in front of guests. WTF?! I swear I was too demoralised to work again after that. I wonder how my manager could take this shit everyday.

Secondly, as though F-ing me wasn't good enough, I have to memorize the wine list in one week! The name, origin, year, types of grapes, etc etc. Since when did I apply to become a sommelier? Even a sommelier have at least a few years to learn about wines and I get only 1 WEEK to learn at least 50 wines?!?

Third, *he* didn't utter a word to me today!!!!!!! not even a simple 'hi' or 'bye'. Everyone noticed how demoralized I was to work and he couldn't even be bothered to say something or at least smile. Wad did I do? Maybe when the barber gave him his new haircut, he accidentally chopped off some of his brain cells.

Last but not least, when i can finally go home, the bus driver did not stop the bus for me although I pressed the bell! When confronted, he said he tot I was just tapping my card. WTF?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?!? Then what was I standing at the door for?

Shit lar.. I shall not rant on anymore. Shall just go to bed and start a new day tmr.

BTW syiqa, since when issit my fault that u need to satisfy your cravings? LOL!

back 2 work

2009-05-02T13:19:00.005+08:00

I came back to work yesterday. Was happy that everyone was excited to see me back at work and they love my new curled hair! hehe. And they asked me out for some KBox fun. Overall, I did enjoy myself besides the fact that they tied me up with the microphone wires and threw peanuts at me. When I got home to change, guess what drop from my clothes? several more peanuts! hahahaa

last day

2009-04-28T00:06:00.003+08:00

Ok. Today was my last day of work. Well, maybe just what my colleagues assumed it to be. But it's kinda true. It's my last day, my last day working there in the month of April. Haha. I told everyone I was leaving coz I actually took a long leave and even my manager is fearing that I'm not coming back. Here's some pics.

bartender and baristas at work
Ping
Foong
Roberto (head chef)
kitchen staffs' illegal meeting
kim
boy and my manager

caught in the act while scolding me

Davide (La Nonna HV chef)

I think everyone felt weird while taking the group picture coz I dun think they ever took group photo with their colleagues before especially kitchen and service staff combined. As you can see, I'm the only rose among the thorns therefore I'm pampered too much. hehe

****

me: boss! boss!

singh: wad issit my dear ?

me: you say u wan to help me take group photo. all kitchen and service

singh: *starts shouting* come everyone! meeting meeting! faster! Jimmy call all the kitchen staff also.

jimmy: *after everyone's gathered* why suddenly got kitchen and service meeting sia?

singh: everyone here?

everyone: think soo. should be uh.

singh: ok come. take photo.

everyone: chey!!

me: heheehhehehehehe

****

meng: why you like sad sad like tad.

kim: coz she leaving marh. she sad lar.

me: I tired lar. let me sleep can.

*him: no. she sad coz she nv see her LV bag.

****

me: bye people. don't miss me k?

*him: but why you leave eh?

me: don't worry. I'll come back to visit. and also to collect my LV bag from you

*him: you come my house tonight tmr we go buy together.

****

meng: drink one more lar. Bottoms up, you and me challenge

me: cannot lar. you drink beer like water leh.

meng: can one lar.

me: cannot la. later later if drink so much got beer belly sia. not nice.

meng/*him: arh? baby?

*him: ya you go my house tonight confirm get baby. wan not?

me: wtf sey?

****

me: wey! my fren! u touch my backside for wad?

kim: no la. playing playing only marh

*him: *bangs the wall* lanciau! who touch your backside sia?! kim! you come here now! sakit hati sey!

kim: *hides behind me*

me: haha. gangster at work.

****

I'll sooooo miss them when I really resign one day. I really love working there but I just don't see myself going far in that place therefore I have to leave.

Beer Fest Asia

2009-04-20T00:55:00.004+08:00

Ahhhh!! Everyone's being so nice to me at work lately that it makes me think twice about leaving! Why!?!?!??!!?

me: aye! my days are numbered already, u still owe me an LV bag.

*him: haha! it's my way of holding you back.

**********************

Anywayz I wanna go for the BeerFest this year. Anyone up for it with me?

Woah

2009-04-16T00:33:00.002+08:00

wtf. the pictures I saw was like a slap or should I say a punch on the face. Thanks ya.

There's nothing else I can say. Wish he never looked at me that way.

Resigning yet again

2009-04-13T14:31:00.003+08:00

Had a blast on Germ's birthday. Hope he did too despite being dead drunk.

I'll be resigning soon. Again. No doubt I love to work there becoz of the people but I have to think bout myself now. I'll miss them. Terribly. It's the only place I can misbehave and disturb people when they are working and they still love me, come to work with hangover and they still care, have pms and they still look for me. Coz I'm the only female so they dote on me! hehe.

cloud nine

2009-04-06T00:55:00.002+08:00

wassssup!

I just feel like updating but I have nothing to update about. Been busy with work work work and more work. But I'm not complaining as long as I get to see *him* :D

*him: Don't disturb her. She's my future girlfriend.
me: ya rite. You'll only make my life miserable...
*him: miserable but still my girlfriend wad.
_________________

*him: Next time tell LG don't kiss you infront of me can? I jealous you know. You want to do it then behind my back please.
me: hahaha. wadever la J_ _ _ _-san. hehe

Woke up Early

2009-03-20T09:26:00.002+08:00

Aite. Will be off to work soon. I have no idea why I woke up and got ready super fast today. It's only 9.30am now so I've decided to update my blog.

Dropped my phone yesterday and it's not working anymore. Send it for repair yesterday during my split shift and was almost late to come back to work. Luckily my manager didn't scold me or worst, luckily LG wasn't there. Hehe.

Will be without a phone for maybe 4 days. So I don't know how I can contact anyone or how anybody can contact me. I didn't even memorize my new home phone number. Haiz.

Anyways, will be busy at work today. People always look forward to TGIF but I dread Fridays and Saturdays coz I'll be working till 1am and it'll be super busy. Haiz.

Ciao people. I shall look for something to eat now.

La Villa

2009-03-18T01:30:00.004+08:00

Some random pictures I took at my new workplace. I miss Flyer.

Entrance
Bar Area
Main Dining Area

Slap him, He's French!

Pizza and Desert Station

Chef at work with a drill?!

he calls me Valentina

too bored at work

Bouncer

My Manager and me

Birthday Pics

2009-03-02T22:51:00.002+08:00

The rest of the pics are in my facebook

Happy Birthday to me

2009-03-01T21:53:00.002+08:00

Weeee. I love my 20th Birthday. I feel so old now and one year nearer to my death. Haha

My birthday pics will be uploaded as soon as I get the camera back in my hands. I got myself an LG Renoir as my present! Hehe. Loving it.

Great Disappointment; That's Me

2009-02-12T00:53:00.002+08:00

I miss updating my blog.

Anyway, I was shit drunk yesterday. Went drinking with a few peeps after work. Was super fun. Took lots of pictures but 2 of them requested for the pictures not to be published anywhere on the Internet. Haiz.

I was so drunk that I was vomiting all the way back home in the cab and, as soon as I got home. The next thing I remembered was that I was sleeping on the kitchen floor. Haha! Then I quickly got up and went to bed. Today, I got diarrhoea. Wth?! Who on earth goes drinking and instead of having hangover, got diarrhoea instead? Fuck it la.

*To a certain someone who wrote about me in her blog*
As to why I applied for full time is because my family is having some financial problems and boss is offering me a good pay. Also because all the other jobs I went interviewing for, I didn't get it and I need money to help my family desperately.
Ever since flyer reopens, I've always been asking boss to take you back if not permanent part-time then at least for functions but he insisted on no.
For your pay, boss wanted you to come down personally to take it coz you owed him something that's why he doesn't allow me to take your pay. Even if i take it, I don't have time to go to the bank. Even I am looking for someone to bank in for me.
If you were really that hurt because I joined full time or because of the previous msg, why didn't you just inform me. Instead you choose to call me names and bitch about me in your blog.
I don't think I owe you any explanations since you already decide to criticize me. Be that way then.

zzzzz

2009-02-06T12:12:00.002+08:00

Got another off today. But it's nothing to be joyous about coz it's my off day for next week. Which means... next week I will work from Sunday to Saturday from 10am till 10pm. Will be super tired but, as long as I have my colleagues with me and my SF friends, I'll be fine.

Been back to my old habit of drinking lately and it has come to point where I have to drink at least one glass of alcoholic drink a day. And staying up all night drinking would be the best although I might have to work the day after. I also been having a sudden urge to go clubbing recently. Just waiting for my pay to come and off I go! Clubbing anyone?? Anywayz... I don't want February 14th to come as couples all around Singapore would flock to SF to celebrate and I would have to be their host. WTH... I don't want. Hopefully I'd have staffs under me so I can push them up the flight instead. Hehe. Then I can start F-ing people.

Been rather unhappy with one of the Kiosk staff and I'm now just waiting for Ashraff to put her under me so I can F her maximum.

I have nothing to blog about actually. My birthday is coming and invitation would be send out soon. Keep checking.

I solemly swear that I am up to no good

2009-01-30T07:27:00.002+08:00

I just got home. Instead of sleeping, I chose to use the computer as it's been down for days and now it has finally been repaired. Received so many junk mails.

Was suppose to be my off day yesterday but due to some reason, I got called back to work last minute. It kinda ruined my whole plan of catching up with my sleep. So I was kinda pissed. Then I received a disappointing message from a certain someone who has been avoiding my calls for days. I should have known it'll come one day but didn't expect it to be so soon. But who cares, it runs in the males' blood; disappearing as and when they want to.

Finished work at 10.45pm and decided to wait for Mark as we stay near each other. On the way, we met Aziezan who also stays near us. I suggested to grab a bite at Mac's as I was super hungry and after that we ended up drinking. I guess that's just what I needed. We stayed up all night chatting, drinking and playing cards. I guessed I managed to hide my emotions well as no one noticed that I was feeling a little upset until they found out. There's plenty of fish out there so I guess there's no use brooding over a spilled milk.

I wanna date like a guy. Flirt with people, lead them on, then just disappear. Sick and tired of always being the nice one. The one people always take advantage of. If you wanna ask why I don't have a boyfriend,I'm pretty sure my answer would be, "it prolly has nothing to do with you guys being assholes."

Currently right now, what's priority to me is family, Shena and work. And of coz memek. I love him to bits and pieces though he always chooses to ignore me. As of 1st February, I'll be starting out as my newly promoted position of Captain. I'm so happy as the pay's good and I wanna settle my school fees asap and help out mom a little bit financially.

Ok. It's almost 8am now and I'm so sleepy. Thank god for my day off today so I can sleep like a pig. Will be meeting Shena later. I miss her so much!

Ciao!

...

2009-01-14T22:44:00.002+08:00

Was suppose to get my pay in my hands today but shit I made a mistake. Now I have to be broke for another day.

Finally sent my phone for repair. I miss it already. Haha

Having 2 interviews on Saturday and I'm not sure if I could make it for both. And also, I have no idea what to wear. I wanna look for something nice and cheap. Any ideas where?

Ah shoot. I actually have nothing to blog about. So.... ciao then

Happy '09

2009-01-03T00:30:00.006+08:00

Ok! Still not too late to wish everyone a Happy New Year! Celebrated my New year's eve at the Singapore Flyer. I enjoyed my countdown as I got free flow of drinks. Had some vodka, champagne,white and red wines. Hehe. It was an alcohol feast! Here's some pictures. I'm trying to upload the rest in my photo album but shutterfly doesn't seem to be working for the time being. So for those who wants to view the other pictures, just check out my facebook!

after effect

2008-12-25T23:18:00.002+08:00

Okies. Since the Flyer is closed till next year, I'm currently jobless as all part-timers had been stopped till further notice. I'm rotting at home like nobody's bussiness. Tired of sleeping, playing computer games and playing psp. I wanna work as I want money.

Thanks to all of those who cared bout me being stuck up the flyer. Appreciated it so much.

Finally got the chance to change my blogskin. I like it!

Stuck In S'pore Flyer

2008-12-24T18:49:00.004+08:00

As some of you know, the Singapore Flyer was temporarily suspended yesterday and I was one of the unlucky casualties.

I was setting up for the Wedding Solemnization Capsule at 5pm which was suppose to be ready by 5.30pm but the Flyer got jammed halfway and I was at the 3 O'clock position. At first I didn't panic as throughout the 74 times I've been up the Flyer, it wasn't the first time I experienced the Flyer at a halt. I just remained calm and keep calling my boss for the next 3 hours; wanting to know when the Flyer could start operating again. Then suddenly I saw a few men climbing the Flyer ladders and started to get curious. I observed them until my boss called me,

boss: girl, sorry to say but the wheel isn't going to start moving anytime soon.
me: haiya. i so bored already up here.
boss: ya. they going to bring u down by the rope.
me: uh? wad rope? u kidding rite?
boss: ya ya. see the capsule in front of u. can u see the woman dangling out?
me: OMG?!? I'll have to do that too????
boss: ya...
me: BOSS!!! I DON'T WANT!!!!!!!!

If you read the Newpaper for today, yup, it's me at the second page. Crying my way down. Thank god I have my colleagues and Flyer crew to cheer me on as I was so scared.

*courtesy of Vivien for the picture

I really salute the rescue team who came and calmed me down and brought me safely to the ground. They're super brave to climb up to my capsule and help me. I really really thank them and I don't how else I can express me gratitude.

(conversation in Malay)
rescuer: hello. are you OK?
me: yea...
rescuer: you dare to go down?
me: no...
rescuer: it's OK. don't be scared. it's not so high... what's your name?
me: Izan
rescuer: ok Izan. are you married?
me: no!! and I don't even have a boyfriend!!
rescuer: really? ok wait. *calls the rescue team at the bottom* this girl not yet married. make sure she reach down safely. ok?
me: wth...???
rescuer: ok. are you ready now?
me: no...
rescuer: let me show you the view below.
me: arrh!!! i don't want!!!

Shopping Spree

2008-12-09T23:19:00.004+08:00

Woohoo. Just got back from shopping. Spend bout $200 in total. May seem a little to some of you but it seems a lot to me. Been wanting to get the maroon shoes from Heatwave but when I try it on, it looked weird on me. So I settled for a pair of black and green heels. And I think my Vans polka-dot pumps is super cute!

I'm still waiting for my Victoria's Secret panties and bronzer to arrive via mail.

Okies. Will most prolly be selling off my MP4 tomorrow. I already have 2 people wanting to buy it. Shall have an early sleep as I'm working tomorrow!!

Got my PSP

2008-12-09T16:11:00.002+08:00

Hohoho. Finally got my PSP. Addicted to it.

Anyway, thank god for my off day yesterday and today. Finally get to rest and see my family member's faces. Tmr all the way to Sunday, I'll be working from 3pm. This Friday will be super busy as:

2pm - 6 Champagne Flights
4pm - 1 Cocktail Flight
5pm - 1 Cocktail Flight and 2 Wedding Solemnization Flights
5.30pm - 1 Wedding Solemnization Flight

so... I don't know if there's enough manpower on that day. Hopefully there is so I won't be tired.

On 15 December, I'll be having 2 interviews. Don't know which one I should attend. Okies. Off to meet my sister for some light shopping.

Ciao!

2008-12-01T23:44:00.002+08:00

my blog's fucked up. I accidentally deleted the pic, the song won't automatically play and no one reads this shit.

Alas, finally settled my bill so my line has just been reconnected. So, my apologises to those who have tried to contact me. hehe

Can't wait for my pay. So fucking broke now.

I wanna go clubbing again!

sad

2008-11-28T12:47:00.002+08:00

I really don't feel like working today. Something happened late last night. And now my dad can't walk. It could have been me in my dad's shoes right now so I kind of feel responsible. He called me early in the morning to tell me he can't move and I fell off my bed coz I was too shocked. I feel sorry for him to be in this state and I wish I could stay home and look after him or bring him to the doctor. But since he insisted that he's fine, all I can do is pray for him.
I hope he knows what he's doing.
Although I love Tiger, I love my dad even more. If it's time to let him go, then so be it...

I want red psp

2008-11-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

I don't care. Die² must get my RED PSP next month. Been pushing it back for so long. I'll be selling off my laptop and maybe my MP4 coz by then I would be contented with my PSP. Haha. Anyone interested please let me know ya.

I'm still contemplating if I should convert to full-time for my current job. For now, the permanent part-timers are only Vivien and myself. But we seldom get to work together coz Boss say we're too close. Haiz.

But there's no doubt that I love working there. Even made friends with the security guards, flyer people and other restaurant's workers. It's like everywhere in the building I could see my friends. I could go for smoke break and eat whenever I want to. I don't think other job has this advantage. Maybe that's the reason why I don't mind working long hours and almost everyday. I should just work there for the time being till something happens...

rite?

Atreyu, Why?!

2008-11-04T13:07:00.001+08:00

Lame Shit la! Atreyu is not coming for Taste of Chaos.

And it's held at DXO instead of Fort Canning. So freaking lame!

I rather work on that day.

Alrite. Ciao. Off to work now!

Singapore Flyer

2008-11-03T00:46:00.014+08:00

Ok. As some of you know, I'm currently working at the Flyer.

(This is the cute pumpkin I first noticed when I came to work on Halloween; which is right at the center of the wheel)

Here's some pictures I took from the flyer when I got the whole capsule to myself! Muahaha

(The model of IR)

Okies. I'm done.

P.S ask me how many times I've been on the flyer. haha

Hell-oween

2008-10-31T23:49:00.005+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Credits to Vivian for her marvellous photography skills! haha

have a taste of chaos!

2008-10-15T03:26:00.002+08:00

HOLLY MOLLY SHIT SHINAGIGANS(sp)! CHECK THIS OUT!!!!!!!!

Source: Rockstar Taste Of Chaos
Rockstar Taste Of Chaos is coming to Singapore this November !!

Bands like As I Lay Dying, Story Of The Year, MUCC and Atreyu as the headliner will be rocking at Fort Canning.

Go get your tickets before it’s sold out!
Date : 8th November 2008

Time : 7pmVenue : Fort Canning Park

Ticket Price : $98 (till 7th Nov) 113 (Door Sales)

I'm SO GOING FOR THIS. SHALL NOT REGRET NOT GOING LIKE LAST YEAR'S SINGFEST!

Happy Raya

2008-10-06T00:47:00.003+08:00

Oh shoot. I'm going back to my old days of eating non-stop. I just finished a packet of fried rice and I'm still hungry. There's nothing left to eat now so I guess I'll just stop for the day and sleep. Just a few days back, I finish 2 boxes of ferrero rocher. Hehe.

My eyes are closing now.

Btw, it's not too late to wish Selamat Hari Raya!

p/s: I didn't get money for this year's raya. so sad...

freak

2008-09-20T02:46:00.003+08:00

Don't get me wrong. It's not that I'm lazy to blog. I just have nothing to blog about. Everyday is the same old routine. Like what my self proclaimed bro always tells me "Same shit, different day".

Please don't read this post if you're easily scared.

Ever since I was young, I was able to 'see' things that not many people could. Like seeing my dad at home and not knowing he was actually away to another country, or.... that female figure that everyone always talks about but never have actually seen one. I've had endless encounters but I really really thank god that I've never seen one face-to-face before. Though I'll be scared to my wits if I saw one, but seeing one right in my face would make me pee and even shit in my pants. The only person I could really talk to about this without scaring the person is my dad. He even told me that when he checks on me sleeping at night, there would be 'someone' by my side; looking at me. But it's not there to harm (so no worries there). Till I was 16, I just kept this between me, my dad, my sis and a few of those close to me (so they won't freak out when they see me suddenly shaking or staring at something) and then I told my dad that I didn't want this third eye as it's too much for me and I'm not that strong enough to handle it.

So my third eye got bound (whether you believe it or not). I thought I could live like any normal person but unfortunately no. Though I couldn't 'see' things anymore, I could sense them. Sometimes for no apparent reason, the hairs on my hands and neck would stand and I would start to feel super duper uncomfortable. Sometimes I feel like I'm just being paranoid or acting like a chicken. But I can't help it.

I'm the type who likes to come home really late at night, simply because I like to. So ever since I stopped working, I'll come home super late like 3 or 4 in the morning whenever I go out. That's when I started seeing things again. So I turned to my dad again one day.

me: Pa, remember when you told me you've already bound my third eye?
dad: ya. why?
me: oh ok. so it means when I see things now it's just my imagination right?
dad: no. if 'they' want you to see 'them', then you will. where did u see it?
me: uh... errmmm... in the lift. when I came home late the other day. But it won't harm me right?
dad: no. 'they' just wanna scare you. so don't be scared. and take care of yourself.
me: huh... oh ok....

So I guess, no matter how much of a scare-dy cat I am, this is something I can't run away from. If you don't believe me, then don't. If you do, I'm sorry if I scared you. But it's just something I wanna get off my chest. It'll make me stronger, I hope...

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2008-09-04T00:34:00.003+08:00

Just got back moments ago from visiting my friend in the hospital. He got beaten up last week when he went to DBL O. He looks super pitiful with the huge bandages on his hands and head. I wonder why youngsters these days like to beat people up and to the extend of using knife/parang. Haiz, bulan-bulan puasa korang buat keje macam gini. Wanted to cry when I first saw him but I managed to overcome it. Poor thing. Visiting him again soon. Thank god he's out of coma.

Happy Birthday Paula!

p.s I am not smarter than a 5th grader

Happy Fasting!

2008-09-01T02:58:00.002+08:00

Fasting month is officially here. In a few hours time, I'll have to stop eating till evening time. So currently, I'm now happily munching a big bag of... I don't know what the chips are called.

Dead bored right now. No chit-chatters online. Downloading "Are you smarter than a fifth grader" game right now. Hopefully it can keep me entertain till sahur.

By the way, I'm extra lazy during fasting period so don't bother so much to ask me out. I'm usually nocturnal during this month. I know during this period I'm suppose to do good deeds but rather than being awake and unintentionally looking at 'stuffs' and accidentally gossiping bout others, I rather spend my days sleeping and my nights awake.

Happy Birthday Shena!
Happy Birthday Kai!
Happy Teachers' Day!
Happy Fasting Everyone!

Happy Happy Happy!

exercising self control

2008-08-31T00:57:00.003+08:00

Aite. Just changed my blogskin again.
Dun tell me it's too bright coz I love red!
And cats.

Today is the last day I can get to eat to my heart's content.
Fasting month is already here.

I can't get a job. Dammit.
Maybe I should just go back to teaching line?

diploma fresh graduate

2008-08-21T13:31:00.002+08:00

Yay! I passed my final exams and now I'm just waiting to collect my Diploma.
I seriously need to get a job ASAP. So sick and tired of doing household chores.
I want and need a job immediately!

Fad's Chalet photos

2008-08-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

OK. The photos are up. Here's some. To see the whole album of 198 photos, click 'Pictures' under my links; Fad's Chalet.

early birds love to camwhore

drunk power rangers

cheese!

group photo

I love this pic. Dunno why

Shena and her stupid purple balloon which was later discovered in the freezer after everyone's sober.

pretending to be hiking in some thick forest

His lifetime aspiration

Fad's Chalet

2008-08-17T21:35:00.002+08:00

Aite. Went to Fadhil's chalet yesterday and it was a blast.
Almost everyone got drunk and some were vomiting all over. Haha.
I was super high and when I look at the pictures on Zee's camera, there's some pics that I don't recalled posing for.

Reached home around 11.30am and went straight to bed as I was the self appointed 'security guard' yesterday night. Woke up at 2pm as someone came to view my house and slept again at 2.30pm. Woke up again at 7.30pm as another viewer came to my house.

Shall upload the pics when I get it. Ciao!

2008-08-13T00:29:00.002+08:00

Just got scolded by daddy coz I was disturbing memek and accidentally knocked onto the dinning table which cause a loud sound at 1230am. Also because earlier I had knocked onto the table fan which cause it to dropped and was partly dismantled(thank god i could fix it). He said that he noticed I've been knocking onto things recently even when I'm sleeping(which explains the bruises I discovered on my knees after I woke up). Haiz. I can't help that I'm super clusmy these days.

It's not my fault isn't it?
Must be Memek's!

Tiger a.k.a Memek Boom

2008-08-06T22:07:00.007+08:00

I love my memek. Ever since I've stop working, I've been spending lots of time with him though he has shown enough evidence to prove that he hates me. For example, quickly moving to another seat if I sat down beside him or chasing and biting my feet while I'm walking.
But I still love him to bits and pieces all the way from the pathetic look he gives when he wants to enter my room,

and to his babats! (fats)And not forgetting the stupid things that he always do...
(You guys have got to take a close up look on this pic)

(trying to push open my room door)

(don't ask me what he's doing to my mom's flowers)

2008-07-26T00:13:00.002+08:00

A week past by in a blink of an eye.
And I did nothing except watching my favourite Korean series for the second time.
It was fun.

Spring Waltz

A Love To Kill

Sassy Girl Chun Hyang

Up in line for next week would most prolly be...

Princess Hours

A Song To The Sun

Hero

great disappointment; that's me

2008-07-16T20:27:00.000+08:00

I'm disappointed that you rarely pick up my calls
I'm disappointed that you rarely reply my texts
I'm disappointed that you only need me when there's no one
I'm disappointed that you seldom talk to me
I'm disappointed that when you talk to me, it doesn't feel the same
I'm disappointed that you couldn't look after the things I gave you
I'm disappointed that you choose to ignore me
I'm disappointed that you come home when you want to and leave it in a mess
I'm disappointed that I couldn't help my friends with their problems
I'm disappointed with so many people and things that maybe, I'm just a disappointment myself

Can you feel your heartbeat racing?
Can you taste the fear in her sweat?
We've done this wrong
It's too far gone
This sheet smells of regret
I'll admit that I'm just a fool for you
I'm just a fool for you

2008-07-12T04:57:00.000+08:00

Oh shoot!
I totally just embarrassed myself infront of him.
I really thought today was his birthday so I wished him via text.
And it turns out that his birthday was last month!
So PAISEY!!!
Like what the hell was I thinking.
Goes to show how much I paid attention.
I guess you need to pay me for attention.

Ok, now I need to express my grieve about how you can find Victoria Secret's products almost everywhere. Last time you can only find it online(and it's great coz then not many people would be using the same thing as you) but now... left, right, back, front, up, down, upside down you can find it. Urgh!

2008-07-07T19:11:00.000+08:00

Hell yea!
Finally finished my assignment.
And I passed my marketing paper! Double joy!
Now I've only got 1 ½ day to study for my Case Studies paper.

2008-07-06T23:25:00.000+08:00

Take a second to make sure your gut is accurate and pure cause I don't got time to waste on anyone who thinks they see something in me that quite possibly might be just someone they think they saved and go.

I'm so damn, so damn tired of all this. Don't bring those haunting deadly eyes to me
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2008-07-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, mommy told me if I follow her to work today, only then I can get some money.

I only had an 1hr plus of sleep and the next thing I knew, it's time to follow mommy to work. It was 5am. We took a cab and the driver was happily speeding his way through the empty roads towards York Hotel even after mommy gave him several but polite warnings. She gave me $15 just as we were about to alight from the cab, and I lost it in 5mins. The last time I was holding on to the money was after I alight from the cab and it took me 5hrs later to realise it. Damn it! I really need that money!

Mommy brought me to the kitchen and I was suprised at the sight of two large woks. Which could literally fit me in. Not like this,

but like this.. (I'm serious)

She made me cut some chillies and onions and her rate of cutting was; CHOPCHOPCHOP(say it in one second) while mine was; chop...chop...chop(say it in 5 seconds) and I was already tearing by the fifth chilli.

Then she made me cut 4 bundles of carrot cakes, which look like 4 loaves of bread, and it was all sticky, wobbly and it took me almost an hour just to cut all. I guess this really shows that I'm not made for the kitchen. Thank god my parents objected when I wanted to further my studies in Shatec. Haha! Also, after all the mess I've made, thank godness I don't have to clean and wash it as she told her assistant to do it.

Dammit. Today's post is totally crap due to my lack of beauty sleep. Going out soon to celebrate Von's birthday.

OK then. Adios Amigos!

(hehe I learn that from Dora the explorer)

2008-07-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Mom!

I pity mom coz today was her birthday and both my sisters didn't not celebrate it with her and instead they went out with their boyfriends. Couldn't they spare one day just to have dinner with their own mother?

And so it was me, mommy and daddy.

As a reward, mom bought me a webcam for doing household chores yesterday and celebrating her birthday with her.

2008-06-25T02:19:00.000+08:00

Aite. Been dead bored at home lately. Stayed up late watching videos and movies to entertain myself. Only when the sun is about to rise, that would be my bedtime. Watched The Strangers, Narnia, Sex and the City, Ayat-Ayat Cinta, The Cutting Edge 3, Enchanted and the whole entire season 1 of Gossip Girl.

The Strangers is great. That's prolly because as I was watching it and was almost reaching the climax part, someone chatted with me and I've forgotten to off the MSN sound so I kinda shocked by the sound effect. Hah. Gossip Girl's alright. Bout the lives of Upper East Siders in NY.

OMG, I can't believe Friday would be my last lesson. After that would be exams and before I know it, I've graduated. Everything's moving so fast. I don't even have time to sit back and get to know the other half of my classmates. And to think I've been in the same class as them for a year plus. I'll prolly miss going to classes at night. But then, I'm also relieved as there'll be no more study stress and I'm be on my first step to doing what I've always wanted.

Anyways, I have to start studying for my exams and preparing myself for the busiest weekend as 2 of my cousins would be getting married; one on Saturday and the other on Sunday. Urgh. Just hope my legs won't give up on me. My wrists on the other hand, are already giving warnings to stop....

Ciao.

2008-06-24T04:05:00.000+08:00

Von insisted that I should take an IQ Adventure Test.
Here's my score.

Happy now Von?

2008-06-15T14:51:00.000+08:00

Aite. Was back in Singapore since Friday but was too lazy to update. Btw I love my new hair! Check out my splits!

2008-06-06T17:56:00.002+08:00

Aite. I'm at my cousin's place in Malaysia right now. It's been a while since I've last been here and the house has changed tremendously I must say. I've decided to take a break for about a week since I'm currently not working and there's no class till next Friday(actually I skipped today's lesson). Arrived around 12mn this morning. Stayed up chatting and playing games with my cousin till 5. I really thank god my wireless is working, coz it hasn't when I tried it at home several times, if not I'll be dead bored when my cousin is glued to her laptop playing Chocolatier. Anyways, I was the one who introduced the game to her, so I guess I can't blame her. Haha.

I wanna have a change in hair colour since I'm not working. Only for the time being till I get job. Definitely not blonde, although it's the perfect hair colour that matches some stupid things I do or say, I don't think it suits me really well. I was thinking of red. Any opinions on that? The last time I dyed my hair red, it didn't really turn out as well but I still wanna get it. It's my favourite colour so I want majority of my things to be red. Currently my nails are red too. Cherry red. And you wanna know what else on me is red? My pimple! haha. and my panties.

Oh crap, I'm starting to babble nonsense due to lack of nourishment since hours ago. Only had nuggets and fries for brunch. Yea, so much for healthy lifestyle. I live for delicious food that's why I wanna venture into F&B line but due to some religious problems, I can't. Hmmm.
Ok. I shall go and get proper food now since my uncle has already prepared it.
So..... readers; Ciao!
food; here I come!

2008-05-31T13:34:00.000+08:00

I'm finally officially jobless.
It's time that I focus on my studies and what I really want to persue.

But I'll miss the kids...

2008-05-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

Go to your corner and cry
Fill those big, bright, beautiful eyes
Tell somebody, tell someone who cares
You can tell anyone you want
Who you think that I should be
Do anything
Don't come crying to me

2008-04-27T10:30:00.000+08:00

Slept for 17hours.
(4pm - 9am)

CRAZY!

2008-04-18T20:02:00.000+08:00

Urgh. Short on manpower today. My legs were wobbly like jelly when I reach home due to being on my feet non-stop.

And dammit! An outbreak of HFMD in my school! Now all the teachers have to disinfect the whole school. And me, as the receiving teacher, I had and have to screen 100 over pupils to take precautionary measures to prevent the disease from spreading. This is the only time when the hand disinfecting spray is my only friend.

Holy shit. My heart has never beaten so fast before(besides the few exceptional times when I see someone special).
The atmosphere in the conference room was so tensed that I just wanted to break down and cry.

There I was back at work after my scheduled working hours as my boss had arranged for a meeting with one of my student's parents. So unfortunately, as form teacher, I had to be present. Something so small as scribbling on another person's book could lead to something so huge. I swear by just looking the parent's red-face and shivering hands, if he could hit someone there and then, someone would have gotten hurt. Thank god things like that only occur in my imagination(you know my imagination can run really wild at times).

Hands, fingers, feet, toes were all pointing at me and assistant that we are not supervising the student's close enough. Instead of letting me say a few things to help me defend myself and my assistant, and lessen the damage of my image/reputation of form teacher, my boss had signalled me keep quiet. I was super pissed. It's not like he was handling the situation well, he made it even worst. So worst that the parents even told him off(even though i feel that my boss deserve it, but i still have to side him). I feel like explaining to the parents that I do care bout the students in my class as if not I wouldn't be there for 2years. I feel like just telling off my boss to let my speak up and if he really want to fire me due to me being rude, he doesn't have to; I've already tendered. But I guess after all that humiliation my boss had been through, I should just give him the respect. I think things were still unresolved when the parents left that evening.

On my way back I met them and they actually apologized to me and told me not take things personally and indirectly hinted that they started to get tensed up because of my boss. Haha. K wadever.

Now that I'm back home, I certainly hoped I would be caught in the situation again. I think this post is long...

2008-04-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

pictures makes my post look longer,
and my blog seems nicer.
You Me at Six makes my heart go faster,
and my panties slightly wetter.

haha. wtf! ignore the last line. just looking for something that rhymes

2008-04-08T22:18:00.000+08:00

You're so nice and you're so smart
You're such a good friend I have to break your heart
I'll tell you that I love you then I'll tear your world apart
Just pretend I didn't tear your world apart

2008-04-04T18:55:00.000+08:00

pictures speak more than words.
Here are the top 3 boys on my favourite list. hehe

(As usual, My Javier Junior. The one who wishes to buy me an Audi car) Lok Tien

Cayden Tan!!!!

Woohoo! Check out these warped photos!

Piss me off and I'll face warp your face! Lol!

2008-03-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

waiting for your call,
I'm sick, I'm angry,
I'm desperate for your voice

kept thinking of where I went wrong
that I alighted at the wrong bus stop... TWICE

2008-03-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

I'm just so freaking bored these few days. Haven't been doing anything much.

Last Thursday I applied for leave and went to meet up with Kai to get my belated birthday present. He cooked Fried Rice with plenty of egg for me. It tasted awful but I did ate a few mouthfuls to please him for his hard work. Well, I can't really expect much from him so I didn't even try to think about how the food will taste like. Haha. His workplace was so hard to find. And he couldn't make up his mind to get me to take the bus or cab when I asked for directions. He kept on singing stupid songs which irritated the shit out of me. But I guess he did entertained me. Left for school and happily took a king-sized handful of his sweets.

Yesterday, went to meet up with Von and Cheryl. Didn't do anything much but just walk around, slack at Orchard Parade Starbucks for hours and cam whore. Headed back home around 10pm cause none of us could decide where to go or what to do next.

Been addicted to Panadols lately. I don't if it's because of my 4 growing teeth but my jaw and face would feel super painful as thought someone had just punch my face and I feel like it's swollen. Only Panadol Extra could stop the pain. But once the panadol effect starts to fade away, the pain would come back. Urgh, I need some help.

And I don't know what's wrong with *you

2008-03-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

I'm back from Batam.

It's good to finally be able to take my mind off my assignments and work for sometime. but now I have difficulty to switch my brain back to the 'working mode'. Had too much fun I guess.
Food was nice. I think I spend all my money on food.

He⁽¹⁾ said.....
He⁽²⁾ said....
Now I'm all confused..
Why me?

All I wanted was him⁽³⁾

2008-03-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

I just changed my phone yesterday coz my parents gave me a $100 starhub voucher for my birthday. I wanted K850i instead but my mom insisted that the design is ugly and doesn't allow me to get it. Haiz. But nvm, I'm contented with the phone I have... for now. Haha

2008-02-24T19:34:00.000+08:00

I'm back again to blog. Went to celebrate my birthday with my colleagues and few of my friends. To my suprise, my bosses came too! haha. And they opened a bottle of Chivas for me. Jeremy also got a few drinks for me. All are nice. Can't recall how many cups i drank and how many different drinks i had. I had fun though. Didn't get drunk but of my colleagues did and my male boss had to carry her to his car and sent her home. How embarrassing. Check out the pics!

The three sisters
Us 4

My boss on the extreme left

my colleagues

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Aite. Reached home bout 4am and I woke up at 8.30am coz my relatives had planned a small gathering at east coast coz my cousin from Aussie is here. and also to have a mini birthday celebration for me. hehe. I'm so tired. think i'm gonna sleep soon!

I had to carry my own birthday cake

My sister wrote this on my right hand

(I'M THE B'DAY GIRL!)

On my left hand

(I'M 19!)

my stupified look

2008-02-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

Yay! I just got back from my Genting trip. I really enjoyed the short gateaway. Forget all bout my troubles. I jealous coz my parents are still there while I'm already back here in Singapore. Haiz...

Ever wondered how it feels to stand among the clouds?

Light snacks and beer. Yum!

The view from my hotel window

Just being me

2008-02-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

Hah! Tokio Hotel rocks my socks!
They're so funny.
Watch this video and you'll know what I mean...

Translation

Slink: I've lost my shoe in the moshpit!
Bill: I`ve lost my shoe while dancing

Slink: Can you please move your sweaty armpit from my face?
Bill: Ey, asshole. You're sweating on me.

Slink: It's an emergency, have you got any hairstraighteners?
Bill: (pointing at Tom's crotch) I've got dreadlocks down there.
Tom: Could you straighten my hair down there?

Slink: Do you wanna snog?
Tom: Should we lick each other?

Slink: What, I can't hear you?
Tom/Bill: Wassup?

Slink: Tokio Hotel rock our faces off.
Tom: Tokio Hotel is giving it to us hard

Tom: Can I fuck you?
Slink: What does that mean?
Tom/Bill: Let's be friends!

Slink: Where is the toilet?
Bill/Tom: Where is the shithouse?

2008-02-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

2008-01-23T23:24:00.001+08:00

The last time we talked it's been so long
I'm missing you so much

2008-01-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

Watch the video clip.. So sad...

If you don't understand malay/indonesian, just watch it.